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stupid lies

Belated Happy Mother's Day!
i forgot to greet everyone yesterday..=]

i missed writing here...
i've been busy with my studies since our summer classes started..
(shoot!..excuses!=p)

yesterday was a different celebration for me and my family!..
it was peculiar, i guess but somehow i was able to manage the entire process!..

mother's day for us (my family) is a simple yet memorable day..
it was the first time of our entire life to spend it without my dad..
but he gave my mom a little surprise..
i just don't know what it is..

last saturday night, bj and i spent the whole night talking over the phone..
he said that mother's day is not really relevant to him..
i hate it when he mentioned the entire sentence loud and clear..
because for me it is the day that i would offer my appreciation to my mom...
but it seems like it is not within his system!..

yesterday, i woke up late in the morning..
totally messed up..
when came out of my room, i saw him giving my mom a gift and a bouquet of flowers..
and he saw me with a pillow mark on my face, 'muta' on my eyes, or maybe 'dried saliva' on my mouth!..so silly!..
i rushed to the bathroom!..
so embarrassed to get out..
but i could not lock myself in the bathroom..
so i decided to go out..poised..

but i was completely mocked!..
damn!..he can't even hide that i was so hideous!..
he laughed!.. you can't imagine the way he laughed at me!..
i was planning to scold him because he lied about how he perceives mother's day event!..
but i couldn't since my mom was beside him!..

hmmph!..i hated it!..
but it was the thought that counts after all..

Manga Addict

as of now, i spent my "summer vacation" reading manga...
it is very amusing...
every time i turn on the computer..,
i will immediately go to the manga website and read..

until it was the only activity i do everyday..
i was somewhat addicted..
jaja..yeyeah!..

my eyes hurt badly..jeje..
but at least,
for a very long time..
i've got to do what i want..
i never read an interesting book lately..
i've been reading twilight saga for the past month..
and i guess, i didn't like it that much..

but when i was reading these comic scripts..,
i was in a different dimension..
jaja..
nonetheless, my english is not that good now..jeje..peace!..

EARTH HOUR

the hour the earth stood still...

an hour of looking back the things that i've done...
a moment of deciphering the danger i've caused to the environment...
sixty minutes of tracing the blueprint of the international menace - GLOBAL WARMING.
three thousand six hundred seconds of making a powerful statement...
a firm stand to be an agent of change...

it was a piece of cake..
it would not even cost you a lot..
u just have to dilate your eyes more than usual to see through the darkness..
but this hour of darkness is more than what we know it is..
it is darkness where in new light would shine..

shine across nations..,
motivating us to help our planet for only one hour..

me and my family together with the intellectual people around the globe,
joined this splendid event...
(if you joined, then that means you're intellectual too..=p)
we simply turned our lights off..
simple as that..
but that made a difference in the whole wide world!..
it was fun!..actually, we had the time to chat about the things that we have done
that made earth less place to live in..
honestly, it was full of denials..
some of us attempt to defend themselves
with brilliant but dissuasive explanations...

it was heartwarming!..
i hope it lasted a little longer because i can hear the gratefulness of our mother earth!..
it was as if she was thanking me for the cooperation...
i don't know if i'm exaggerating but i guess that was what i felt..


safeguarding the environment for future generations should start NOW!..
the 2009 election

EARTH vs. GLOBAL WARMING

cast your votes now..
and help us rebuild the planet we destroyed!

(spread the news)



video from youtube.

shaking

part of me is shaking..
trembling..
i kept my eyes closed for a moment..

i sensed doubt..
filtering underneath my heavy thoughts..

i can feel my heartbeat..
it was too loud..
building up my confusion..

i'm deeply consumed by what?
anger?..disbelief?..
it was too much for me to handle..

neither of us wanted to be hurt..
but by not wanting that..
hurts more..

i don't know what to write..
my enthusiasm failed to lift up my spirit now..

my eagerness is fading away..
what i want to say marked until the tip of my tongue..
i was never close to saying those words..
reading it between and beyond the lines is impossible!

i kept on fighting myself..
but kept on losing..

still the same as usual..
trembling,.. the moment that question is being asked..
shaking,.. the moment regret find its way back to where it belongs..

deafening heartbeat

START YOUR DAY RIGHT!!!

it is the most common reminder from our clinical instructor in our RLE class..
and i agree with her..
i am frequently reminded by that each morning!..

today, i never forgot that reminder..
i even stared in my mirror and stated that sentence all over and over again..
i was covered with a positive aura when i got to school..
i was buoyant and happy..

we finished our laboratory manuals in microbiology..
actually last week, we were tasked to use scotch tape method on a particular kid who seems to practice improper hygiene..
in order to have a positive specimen of enterobius vermicularis..
but unfortunately, i did not make my assignment and i believe that is my own fault..
i was not agitated..simply because i won't dare to punch myself..
it would be stupid!

after finishing my laboratory manual, i passed it together with my groupmates' manuals..
i ended up having 20 mistakes..
but surely, that was all i could squeeze out..
it was perfectly fine..

not until the LEECHES came and sucked all blood they could suck!..
they got my paper and copied it to have a perfect score..
they didn't even asked permission to do so..
they just copied it!.
without any conscience!..
without any guilt fielding their minds!..

i was disgusted!
displeased! teed off!..repulsed!!

i didn't know if i was able to control myself..

my face turned red!..

and 'mind you, it was really red!..

like a tomato!..

exploding!..KA>>BOOM!!

unfortunately, it did not end like what i've seen in the movies!..

like a scene in most of the drama movies..

i want to be furious and wild!..

i needed to be angry!..

i want to spank them!..
teach them a lesson!..
it irritated me more because i know i could not do it!..
i shouted at 'paul' (sorry if i had to put ur name)
because he was mocking me..
saying the exact words i've told him when he asked permission to copy the answers..
my mind did not process what i have to say!..
i wanted to be alone!..
i left the room..
leave my paper with the "LEECHES"..
hurried to find someone who would comfort me..

it is very absurd!..
i feel like yelling!..
but i end up crying like a baby who've lost her toy!..
it is stupid!..
i hate it when all i could do is 'CRY'!
it was even moronic to cry while walking through the corridors..
it sucks!..
i want to name names here..
to be even..but i think it's a dimwitted idea!..

to the leeches,

goodluck!..God bless your hearts!..
i hope you will realize someday that you're just fooling yourselves!..
i hope to see you at graduation though!..=p

saving lives

behind life lies death...

there is always cons to pros..

the cartessian plane always has a negative axis...

in life there is always a beginning and an end...

either way, we still breathe, live, and enjoy life...

i didn't really like the idea of being a nurse.

i was just forced to take up this course.

in this profession, we promote health, prevent illness and provide simple treatment.

in other words, WE SAVE LIVES!

a patient sees you like a god..

they stop seeing you as a person and begin seeing you as something bigger than you are..

we have to be this way, as gods..

.otherwise, we're just like anyone else..

uncertain, flawed, .. normal..

so we act strong, we remain stoic..

we hide the fact that we are also human...

we are not allowed to make mistakes..

or else someone's life will be a waste..

however, questions in my mind are still intact..

why did i chose to be here?..to be who i am right now?..

even if i'm forced to do so..i still have the power to overthrow their supremacy..

but guess what?..i was motivated by what merideth said in Grey's Anatomy,

"I can’t think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon,

but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit.

They make it hard on purpose…

there are lives in our hands.

There comes a moment when it’s more than just a game,

and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away.

I could quit but here’s the thing, I love the playing field."

i am loving the battleground..

heroic and humane..

i had to be here..or else i won't..
my passion should surmount my regrets..

i would ceased to exist like a regretful 'aimee'..

but instead, i would run the race and finish it..
win or lose..
at least i've fought a good fight..=]

(photo from flckr.com)