EARTH HOUR

the hour the earth stood still...

an hour of looking back the things that i've done...
a moment of deciphering the danger i've caused to the environment...
sixty minutes of tracing the blueprint of the international menace - GLOBAL WARMING.
three thousand six hundred seconds of making a powerful statement...
a firm stand to be an agent of change...

it was a piece of cake..
it would not even cost you a lot..
u just have to dilate your eyes more than usual to see through the darkness..
but this hour of darkness is more than what we know it is..
it is darkness where in new light would shine..

shine across nations..,
motivating us to help our planet for only one hour..

me and my family together with the intellectual people around the globe,
joined this splendid event...
(if you joined, then that means you're intellectual too..=p)
we simply turned our lights off..
simple as that..
but that made a difference in the whole wide world!..
it was fun!..actually, we had the time to chat about the things that we have done
that made earth less place to live in..
honestly, it was full of denials..
some of us attempt to defend themselves
with brilliant but dissuasive explanations...

it was heartwarming!..
i hope it lasted a little longer because i can hear the gratefulness of our mother earth!..
it was as if she was thanking me for the cooperation...
i don't know if i'm exaggerating but i guess that was what i felt..


safeguarding the environment for future generations should start NOW!..
the 2009 election

EARTH vs. GLOBAL WARMING

cast your votes now..
and help us rebuild the planet we destroyed!

(spread the news)



video from youtube.

shaking

part of me is shaking..
trembling..
i kept my eyes closed for a moment..

i sensed doubt..
filtering underneath my heavy thoughts..

i can feel my heartbeat..
it was too loud..
building up my confusion..

i'm deeply consumed by what?
anger?..disbelief?..
it was too much for me to handle..

neither of us wanted to be hurt..
but by not wanting that..
hurts more..

i don't know what to write..
my enthusiasm failed to lift up my spirit now..

my eagerness is fading away..
what i want to say marked until the tip of my tongue..
i was never close to saying those words..
reading it between and beyond the lines is impossible!

i kept on fighting myself..
but kept on losing..

still the same as usual..
trembling,.. the moment that question is being asked..
shaking,.. the moment regret find its way back to where it belongs..

deafening heartbeat

START YOUR DAY RIGHT!!!

it is the most common reminder from our clinical instructor in our RLE class..
and i agree with her..
i am frequently reminded by that each morning!..

today, i never forgot that reminder..
i even stared in my mirror and stated that sentence all over and over again..
i was covered with a positive aura when i got to school..
i was buoyant and happy..

we finished our laboratory manuals in microbiology..
actually last week, we were tasked to use scotch tape method on a particular kid who seems to practice improper hygiene..
in order to have a positive specimen of enterobius vermicularis..
but unfortunately, i did not make my assignment and i believe that is my own fault..
i was not agitated..simply because i won't dare to punch myself..
it would be stupid!

after finishing my laboratory manual, i passed it together with my groupmates' manuals..
i ended up having 20 mistakes..
but surely, that was all i could squeeze out..
it was perfectly fine..

not until the LEECHES came and sucked all blood they could suck!..
they got my paper and copied it to have a perfect score..
they didn't even asked permission to do so..
they just copied it!.
without any conscience!..
without any guilt fielding their minds!..

i was disgusted!
displeased! teed off!..repulsed!!

i didn't know if i was able to control myself..

my face turned red!..

and 'mind you, it was really red!..

like a tomato!..

exploding!..KA>>BOOM!!

unfortunately, it did not end like what i've seen in the movies!..

like a scene in most of the drama movies..

i want to be furious and wild!..

i needed to be angry!..

i want to spank them!..
teach them a lesson!..
it irritated me more because i know i could not do it!..
i shouted at 'paul' (sorry if i had to put ur name)
because he was mocking me..
saying the exact words i've told him when he asked permission to copy the answers..
my mind did not process what i have to say!..
i wanted to be alone!..
i left the room..
leave my paper with the "LEECHES"..
hurried to find someone who would comfort me..

it is very absurd!..
i feel like yelling!..
but i end up crying like a baby who've lost her toy!..
it is stupid!..
i hate it when all i could do is 'CRY'!
it was even moronic to cry while walking through the corridors..
it sucks!..
i want to name names here..
to be even..but i think it's a dimwitted idea!..

to the leeches,

goodluck!..God bless your hearts!..
i hope you will realize someday that you're just fooling yourselves!..
i hope to see you at graduation though!..=p

saving lives

behind life lies death...

there is always cons to pros..

the cartessian plane always has a negative axis...

in life there is always a beginning and an end...

either way, we still breathe, live, and enjoy life...

i didn't really like the idea of being a nurse.

i was just forced to take up this course.

in this profession, we promote health, prevent illness and provide simple treatment.

in other words, WE SAVE LIVES!

a patient sees you like a god..

they stop seeing you as a person and begin seeing you as something bigger than you are..

we have to be this way, as gods..

.otherwise, we're just like anyone else..

uncertain, flawed, .. normal..

so we act strong, we remain stoic..

we hide the fact that we are also human...

we are not allowed to make mistakes..

or else someone's life will be a waste..

however, questions in my mind are still intact..

why did i chose to be here?..to be who i am right now?..

even if i'm forced to do so..i still have the power to overthrow their supremacy..

but guess what?..i was motivated by what merideth said in Grey's Anatomy,

"I can’t think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon,

but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit.

They make it hard on purpose…

there are lives in our hands.

There comes a moment when it’s more than just a game,

and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away.

I could quit but here’s the thing, I love the playing field."

i am loving the battleground..

heroic and humane..

i had to be here..or else i won't..
my passion should surmount my regrets..

i would ceased to exist like a regretful 'aimee'..

but instead, i would run the race and finish it..
win or lose..
at least i've fought a good fight..=]

(photo from flckr.com)

the taste of freedom

(photo from flckr.com)

my mom and dad were out of town last week...
motivated by my youthful spirit, i was happy to be at home without being monitored!

i love breaking the rules!..
most of you will not believe that, i doubt!
but honestly, it is one of my 'goals?' in life..
i lived overly protected..
spoonfed and guided each step of the way..
none of my family wanted me scratched!

i appreciate it though..

i do want challenges,
but most of the time
other person plays the game in behalf of me..


i believe that making a mistake is part of growing up!
i'm afraid that when i grow up, i wouldn't be able to live into their expectations..
and that would be the time to be back in to a scratch!
sometimes, i like to write my own desires..
to hum my own aspirations..
and to do my own will..

and that gave me an intuition to pursue my plan!

weeeeee... i was not wreck less after all...
i was composed.
but loved to do the dangerous stuffs..

i might disappoint you with this..
bear in mind that i'm a first timer...
i never gone wild before..

well, bj and i went to cagayan last saturday evening!..
it was awkward because we were not really allowed to see each other during night time..
it was somewhat of a treaty between our families..
at first, i was really malicious!..
i hate to admit it!
but there were some clever thoughts in my mind!..
oh please!..i'm at my peek of youth remember?...
i distracted myself by playing with my cell phone..
but he confiscated it
because it was unfair for him
that i'm the only one playing while he was driving!..
we turned our cellphones off..!

we arrived at cagayan by 5:00 in the morning (i think)
it was still dark..and we didn't have a place to go!..
we started laughing because it was a foolish idea
being there without a place to stay!..
we ended up sitting in the backseat..

i can't explain the moment of silence within the car.
as if we were reading each others thoughts
unfortunately, i can't!
i finished off guessing what he was thinking then..
then he broke the silence...

he asked me few questions i never answered before!
it was a 'yes or no' game!
i had to choose between the two!..
i'm tricky enough to beguile some of his questions.
he had a lot of questions in his mind..
because he can't look at me when he was formulating it..
i didn't bother to ask how long will he ask me those confusing and nerve-wracking questions!

not until, i was so uneasy..
a sudden pain in my abdomen..like the butterflies in there wanted to go out of my stomach..
not because of the questions but because we totally forgot the time!
it was 3:30 in the afternoon and i hadn't eaten my dinner, breakfast and lunch yet!..

my stomach was unforgivable!..
it sent me goose-bumps all over my body!
i can't handle the pain anymore!..

there were no choices left for us to choose!
i was rushed into the hospital..
ending up with an IV..

dehydrated..suffering with my h.pylori mixed in the gastric juices..

did you like the ending?
think!!!

PEACE

why is peace so elusive?

how much more are still left to be sacrificed?

how can we acquire 'peace' in this intricate world?

i am an advocate of peace.
i love peace.
i believe it is better than the riches of this world.
above all wealth and treasures...
it is a masterpiece waiting to be made...

i never really thought that this word will mean so much to me.
before, it was just a simple five letter word.
simple to spell..
simple to pronounce..

yet,

so hard to achieve...

i've seen a video created by the CNN news team and it was about "genocide"..
it was a total destruction of a race, an ethnic group with no military power...
it was heart-breaking...
in a matter of few seconds, everything will turn to dust!
it was a crime against humankind!



i am not really good in persuading people...
not even a public speaker!
but who will stand against this
life threatening event?
who will end this suffering?
by talk or by force..
someone must take a lead!

war settles nothing but tears and agony!
whose convictions will surmount?
whose passion will prevail?

will you let fear wrap you inside?
or will you let "PEACE" keep the fire burning?

choose your battlecry!

(photo from yahoo.com, cnn.com respectively.)

nostalgia

have you been sentimental while crossing the street?

haven't you dealt with bittersweet feelings while talking to a fish vendor?

nostalgia...

at last i was able to mumble into to myself..

it was a very deep longing for someone.

someone i wished to talk to when i'm partly insane..

someone that would:

spank me without a reason,

yell like my mom as she used to,

make face in front of a fish vendor,

cross the streets without looking side by side,

get a peso change with my jeepney fare...

i missed being with someone whom i used to be myself.

not hiding, not pretending.

jerking around, peeking inside my crushes' classroom.

but..,

it suddenly turned into a frozen memory when i turned down the offer as being one of the 'iskolar ng bayan'

stubborn and completely messed up!..

my plans were washed away.

ambitions suppressed in my innermost heart.

i heard the story of MMK last saturday,

yet bitterness flowed into my veins..

i felt like i was going to puke..giving in with its undesirable taste!

i disgust myself for a moment..

anger was creeping into my heart!

however it did not consume my whole being..

thankfully, i was able to control myself, letting the zen dash into my blood..

in exchange of a toxic regret!

minutes passed..

my phone rang..,

i was surprised...

ashamed for a second...

looking at the caller i.d,

answered it,

she whispered,

'i miss you'!

Harriet Beecher Stowe

"The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone."

(wisdomquotes.com)

(photo from flckr.com)

badtrip

i wasn't prepared for school today!
many thoughts are coming cross into my mind..!
it is really mind-bugling..
the idea that you can't focus on what you are doing makes me feel like an idiot!
i don't think my senses are working properly..
i am more like a lethargic person than i was already...

my day started in a nutshell...
my aunts and uncles were at our house early in the morning..
i heard them talking that's why i woke up!..
they were laughing as if my face didn't look annoyed...
i hurried up to take a bath but my brother wanted to use the bathroom first!
as a little sis, i paved way...

i ate my breakfast while he was taking a bath...
he was taking several minutes inside
and i am so angry waiting for him to finish just outside the bathroom..
he went out, annoyed and angry with me because i began knocking the door..
i didn't look at him to expel the raging thunders in my mind!..

it was eight in the morning when i was about to go to school...
the badluck came rushing all over my morning
because there were no tricycles available!
i was furious already!..
out of extreme need to be at school,
i hitched with our neighbor,
letting my face thickened for about ten minutes..
my blood rushed into my face and 'kuya john' (my neighbor) was making fun of it!..
i was so embarrassed and angry because my physiological reactions did not obey my thoughts!

i immediately went out of the car and bid him goodbye!
he was still smiling when i slammed the door...

at school, i was running very late..
i paid my balance account in the cashier because my mom told me so!
i ran to our micro lab room even displeased because we were taking a quiz after the discussion!
i memorized the slides presented to us..!
but i was dismayed because i caught some of my classmates cheating!
"badluck" that's how i want to call it!..

(photo from yahoo.com)